Week 36, Day 6

Its week 36 and day 6 or if you round of, 37 weeks of you being in my belly. This means this week and onwards, you are safe to emerge into this large world as your father and I as your paternal guardians. So many things need to be planned and I feel like things are spinning out of control. I want the best for you and making choices for us is so hard.

You no longer have the space you enjoyed these past few months so now it’s mostly turns and nudges from you. In addition to that, you positioned yourself well, in eager preparation to meet your future. We figured we call you Byron, just coz we stumbled across it in the net, Waithaka because the name belongs to your daddy’s father and Kihara because that is the name of the family waiting for you.

I always wondered how anyone hears their own voice when their ears are filled with the voices of others. That’s what I'm dealing with now and I pray for strength to have my voice heard.

I don’t know whether it was fair to you that I agreed to move so far away from where I work making it impossible to rush home if you needed me. I don’t think I was right to let others decide what concerns you giving the impression that I was not prepared for you. I know they can never substitute me in your life because there can only be one woman who gave birth to you. That’s me buddy, little ol Naomi Wairimu, wife of Kihara Wambui, daughter of Mbugua and child of the Kingdom.

Your existence also coincides the time I'm reconnecting with your father, my first love and has a lot of interesting twists and turns. So many things I hadn’t noticed in him that I'm discovering them now.

I pray that God gives us the strength and wisdom to raise you right. I pray He will guide us each day on our future together as the Kiharas’.

PS, Today’s Mother’s day and guess what?? Because of you, I get to celebrate it. All in all, see you soon my dear son, it was interesting having you in me these past 9 months. Very interesting indeed!!!

Nine months and waiting

Its a beautiful Saturday morning and you, my dear Bee, are still nestling in my womb. Your Uncle Mark hoped you would be born yesterday so that you two can share birthdays but I think you had other ideas. So you are officially in Week 39, Day 4 in Wombsville with no sign of emerging yet but clearly you want to take a few shots of your mother's ribs before you can no longer get away with it.

Everyone from both sides of the family are dreaming and imagining that you're already here and are call to check every hour. Even my workmates are also obssessing about it. :) its kinda heart warming coz i thought no one was that interested in our development. its good to be wrong. The day you come will be a first for all of us. First child for your Dad and I, first day for you, first grandchild for our parents, first nephew for your uncles, first birth for me... Im a little anxious but I think with God on our side, we should be alright. :)

I think the names we chose for you will suit you just fine. :) in the future, when you get a baby sister, she'll be Wambui and if a baby brother, he'll be Mbugua. :) Its Kikuyu naming system that you will understand how it goes later on.

We got our first househelp, as the Kihara family, yesterday. She's called Grace and hopefully things will work out between us. You're dad is still sleeping soundly which is a good thing because the last few days, he's hardly been getting any sleep lately. He's been expecting to here me tell him when you'll start coming. :) I think he's relaxing and realising only God knows when so there's no point stressing about it so he'd better be rested enough for the excitement that comes with baby's arrival. :) I've been getting lots of stuff for you to wear or use from friends family... its so warming and overwhelming.

All i need to trace are a dozen socks for you and we're set for the first days. :)

Take your time my dear child, but just know you have less than 2 weeks to make a grand appearance or we'll have to remove you forcefully. :) Im grateful to God that He's kept you safe and healthy throught my pregnancy. Come to think of it. I think mothers ought to be bought for presents at their children's birthdays because, we did all the carrying and laboring, we ought to be appreciated as well. All I know is that I'm slowly transforming into my mother and its creepy! I was thinking yesterday that I'll be sad the day i'll have to discipline you. :) I know you'll think im being ironic but when you have your first child, call me up and tell me if I'm still being ironic.

:) Your eager and novice mother!!!

4 1/2 months expectant

My darling Bee, today is when you are 18weeks and in three days you'll be 19 weeks in my womb. I'm not feeling well because im having my first cold sore and its really aggressive. I pretty much look like a boxer who had a nasty beating in the face. :) Dont worry, it's not your fault at all. Doctor K. from Mater Hospital says being pregnant lowers my immunity that's why the cold sore is really aggressive.

So far i can barely feel you in inside me but i know you're very active inside me. Your grandma Wambui came to see your dad and I yesterday when she heard that i was having a nasty cold sore. It was interesting coz this was the first time she's visiting us. When she was leaving, she got into a confrontation with the neighborhood night guards who thought they could intimidate her for parking close to the next compound gate.

Just know that if ever someone messes with you, they should hide from Grandma Wambui coz she's really protective of her own and since you're her first grandchild, no one should imagine doing anything bad to you. That doesn't mean that dad and I cant discipline you, that is part of loving you.

Well, let me continue to recuperate while your dad goes to church. sleep tight sweety and il eat soon so that you can feed well. :) mwaaaahh I love you bee!